At Yosemite, whilst on our summer road trip ’12
Last week I talked about intuitive eating.
Today I want to talk about intuitive blogging. (You already know why I blog.) Or rather, blogging as a natural extension to life. Not something planned, rigid, or prescribed. I know that may work for some blogs, but the evolution that has occurred to this space, to me, over recent months, will not grant that.
Much has changed since I first began this blog almost 4 years ago (my first post!)–in the content as well as my approach. Hopefully my pictures, writing, the overall feel & authenticity of the blog has improved. But through it all, I’ve hoped bring joy to be a living, breathing extension of my life.
After all, this why I love blogs. This is what I think makes blog worth reading. They’re real. They’re intimate.
The past six months or so, I’ve blogged more than I ever have.
I’ve learned a lot. I’ve realized what I don’t want my life to be (stuck in front of a computer) & what I want my life to be (primarily spent in reality with the people I love most).
I’ve realized I can’t operate the same hours/lifestyle that many bloggers do. I don’t have hours a day to devote to blogging (that is, if I want to get a decent night’s sleep, which turns out–I do).
So I’m pulling back. I’m still committed to writing whenever I can. I hope daily, but I want to give myself more freedom to let it be more of a free-flowing pursuit. I still hope to stay connected with my blogger friends & follow the blogs I love. I will still (always) read your comments & do my best to respond to your thoughtful comments & inquiries.
Joseph & I talked the other night.
“I just don’t know if I should continue with the blog. Sometimes it seems, at least on paper, like such a moronic thing to do. Spend 10-20 hours a week & spend money (this is not a money-making endeavor) to upkeep the site, & for what? Sometimes it seems like my time & efforts, since they’re finite resources, should & ought to be spent on something more tangible, more real.” After my slew of words, Joseph responded: “Well, you do it, because you love it.”
True. I do.
As we talked, he helped me to realize that I just need to be me. That I should blog when I want to, when I feel so inspired, when I can. He made it clear he’s my biggest fan, my biggest support & he wants me to keep going.
Like intuitive eating, intuitive blogging requires some self-awareness. Is this too much? Do I love what I’m creating, writing about? Could my time be better spent elsewhere, & if so, how? These are all questions I’ll be asking myself.
Ultimately, I desire a real space. A space that reflects the ebb & flow of motherhood & life.
As always, thank you for reading.