I’m not what I was.
Change happens subtle-like. You don’t even notice.
Until one day, you find yourself as a chaufer in a mini-van. 4 kids in boosters & carseats, & you realize: I’m not what I was.
How did it happen?
Was it in the minutes or the days? In the weeks? Or the accumulation of moments?
It’s a hard to know.
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Do you notice your own personal evolution?
Is it subtle or startling?
Definitely subtle. I pretty much feel about 25 years old all the time…and then I look around and realize I own a house and 3 kids…crap how did that happen?
Change. Evolution. I’ve gone through many phases. I’ve changed in so many ways. Good ways, mostly. As much as I wish my skin were as clear as when I was little I don’t want to go back. I love where I am even if I can’t be out dancing all night. Now, I can dance in my living room with my little one. *Gasp* I’ve grown up! I don’t know when or how but I most certainly have.
I think it happens ever so subtly that you don’t even realize it’s happening.. but the realization is usually startling. But could you really imagine it any other way? Sure sometimes.. but then they smile or say something unbelievably adorable and it’s all worth it.
I’ve noticed it a lot lately – relationships, politics, and even the way I look. It feels subtle until you feel like you don’t even remember the person you were. It was kind of startling for me.
Yes, isn’t it amazing what a little self-introspection does? It is startling once you realize the changes you make consciously (& subconsciously). It’s a little dream-like, living is, & it requires constant effort to make sure I’m not sleeping through it all.
What a great insight, ALlie, thanks for sharing!