moving day (leaving Texas)

joseph & kids image: originally posted in why parenting is easier than you think

What is it to know a place?

Is it in the people you meet, the restaurants you dine, the parks you visit, the streets you drive, the paths you take that become your own?

Today is my last day in San Antonio.

This evening my babies & I will hop on a plane & leave this place.*

We have been here for 2 1/2 years.

In that time I have grown my brood from four to five.

I’ve become a military wife & have had my induction into the military life.

I have made dear friends & kindred spirits who have shown me that people are kind & good. And though our departure from San Antonio won’t be anything like our previous farewell, our friends & memories are none the less keen.

I gave up home school, then embraced it again (if only for a brief period, I can’t be sure).

I’ve been burned out, I’ve been lonely, & I’ve realized that bad things can happen to good people.

I’ve made mistakes (like this $14,000 one) & learned that less is less, & less is better. We have made sacrifices & we are now much closer to our goal of being debt-free.

I’ve realized that living in my thirties isn’t half bad.

I’ve found out how to find my natural weight without losing my mind, & come to terms with my curves.

I’ve learned that there are two kinds of people in this world, & though I can be a whiner, I hope I’m mostly a do-er. I’ve found that sometimes I surprise myself.

I sit in my kitchen cluttered with moving boxes, waiting for our last round of movers to arrive.

I try to remember the names, the faces, the places, the feelings, the events, the moments of this place.

In a slur of memories, I remember that life changes in an instant, & as such, I want more of this.

It’s not in one grand moment or climax, but is made in the minutes. It’s felt in instances. In the whir of everyday rountine, it’s hard to remember this.

*The kids & I are stopping in Washington state for a few months, before we head to Okinawa, so we can get in some much needed family/friends/nature time. We miss our home state!

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Comments


  1. Anja
    on June 13, 2015 at 11:23 am said:

    Hi Janae,

    we have just moved to Seattle from Berlin (Germany), my city of birth. I am excited for you to go abroad.
    Since we just arrived here it is nice to get some inspiration regarding camping with children and especially the best places to do so in Washington state.

    Have fun and the best of luck to you and your family!

    • Anja
      on June 19, 2015 at 12:59 pm said:

      by the way your pecan brownie recipe is great! i used everything coconut instead of nuts because the friends we baked it for are allergic to nuts.
      thank you, janae!

  2. Joya
    on May 21, 2015 at 12:27 pm said:

    I’m so excited for you all. I know there are so many emotions right now! I’m praying that all goes well and this journey will be a great one.

  3. Jenny
    on May 21, 2015 at 4:11 am said:

    Safe travels to you all! Looking forward to your next post whenever that may be.

  4. Lfwfv
    on May 20, 2015 at 12:57 pm said:

    So exciting! All the best 🙂

  5. Marly
    on May 20, 2015 at 9:39 am said:

    Congrats on the big life changes. I know these things can be scary, but I do think you’re giving yourself and your kids a gift to have the opportunity to see life from another perspective. I’m so excited for you and can’t wait to hear more about it all!